Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Post 101 - The Transparency Conundrum...

So I'm thinking about transparency. I just deleted the post I was about to write that had to do with my views on a topic that is particularly hot in my head right now. Instead, I now have a bunch of questions about transparency.

I tend to be a very transparent person. My theory goes something like this:
  • We all have secrets that we don't want anyone to know about us.
  • These secrets make us feel pretty badly about ourselves because we think we are the only people with these secrets.
  • If we all talked about our secrets, we would realize we all have the same secrets
  • Then we wouldn't hate ourselves so much, and we could get on to forgiving ourselves.
The thing is, I don't know if this theory holds any water. I try to not have any secrets, and do a pretty good job at it. I tend to be a really transparent person as well, and I struggle with this a lot. Sometimes I think it's a good thing that I'm transparent, sometimes I think it's a bad thing. Sometimes it makes people respect me, sometimes it makes people think I don't know when to shut up. (Which, let's be honest, I don't.)

I guess the question is, am I right? Is it okay to be transparent? Or should I start keeping a few more secrets? Should I start living a life that's a bit more obtuse, a bit more closed? Or should I continue being an open book? I just don't know.

2 comments:

Joshua said...

Meh! I love it! What a great alternative to "whatever." It's shorter, it's not as offensive, it's not as apathetic... it says, that's the best I can do, but I know it's not all that great! I LOVE IT!

Meh.

Redbaerd said...

i've been obsessing these days about the promises that we make all the time. intentional and accidental. stated (and more often --) implied...

and while I'm definitely the type who is constantly erring on the side of transparency. I think that one unintended effect that sometimes ripples out from transparency is a misperception about intimacy.

I feel like some people (over-) perceive my transparency as intimacy because they aren't as transparent...and assume a depth of relationship that I don't intend. Not a bad thing until you (I) can't follow through on all the friendships / promises (?) that you've (accidentally) made.

Which is why I do think that the level of transparency that we engage in should be somewhat socially derived -- somewhat interactionally determined...

I think....

But I love (always) your thinking and questions...